nothing,nowhere. real Lyrics

I don’t wanna talk

I just wanna sleep it off

So I can go to bed

Pretend that this will somehow end

I don’t wanna talk

I just wanna sleep it off

So I can go to bed

But I know that this will never end

I was in Temple, Texas

And I took an exit to a gas station, stopped the car

Saw a young man, wearing black Vans

Kinda looked like me from afar

He said “Joe, I would die for you, bro

Man, you a legend, I hope that you know

I got your logo tattooed on my throat

I stayed out, I was waiting for your show

You do it all even with the anxiety

And honestly, that is inspiring

With all the depression you put on yourself and from others

That shit must get tiring”

I told him “Thanks” and I drove home

Going 95 in a 55

I don’t wanna let him down now

Try’na be strong, but I don’t know how

I don’t wanna talk

I just wanna sleep it off

So I can go to bed

Pretend that this will somehow end

I don’t wanna talk

I just wanna sleep it off

So I can go to bed

But I know that this will never end

So what will it take with this broken brain?

Will I go insane?

Will I be the same?

Will I win this game?

I don’t know

Facing an army of fear on my own

Reading reviews of my songs in my bed

I lie when I say it won’t get to my head

Defining myself by a stranger’s opinion

The people around me tell me not to listen

So you wanted real?

Now I’m bein’ it

I don’t wanna keep on feeling this

You don’t know what I’ve been dealing with

You don’t know what I’ve been dealing with

I put all this pain in the music

But every night on this stage I’m reliving it

Had a panic attack every day for a year

Gave me pills, I know there was no fixing it

Yeah, ’cause me and mental health go way back

Thought it went away but it came back

Either way, I know I gotta try and face that

It’s how I am but I wish that I could change that

I don’t wanna talk

I just wanna sleep it off

So I can go to bed

Pretend that this will somehow end

I don’t wanna talk

I just wanna sleep it off

So I can go to bed

But I know that this will never end